after years of being in a relationship with Christ, He is still revealing things about Himself to me that are so basic, but somehow they are meat and not milk.
tonight, through a friend’s sermon, the Lord revealed to me that I have been believing that He is wrong to love me. I am thankful for the Lord’s love, but i know that I don’t deserve it and so, I believe (subconsciously) that He is making a mistake– He doesn’t really know what He’s doing.
But here’s the truth– some of the best news i’ve received in a long time:
God loves me.
And God is just.
Therefore, God is just in His love for me.
i know… this should be in my basic system of beliefs, right? but my corrupted flesh is so insecure that my first conclusion is that Christ’s love for me is wrong, or not as true as He says it is.
so after the message, we’re singing songs about the Lord’s love and mercy, and for the first time, i realize that every time I sing these lines, i sing them with my mouth but i’m just singing words that to me, didn’t mean anything. and tonight i got to experience the Lord’s love in its fullness and truth when i sang those songs. and there is no joy greater than that!
-love, kels
1 Comment
September 28, 2009 at 12:01 am
Beautiful! I love to see the Lord working in you! Love you!